Some day

Its been a couple days since i last posted. Today was alright i guess. I got to school once again. it was cold an boring. Patrick still cracking tons of black jokes. Our world is beyond screwed up. we find disgusting jokes and horrible things funny, and it doesnt help much that im a part of that. Our morals and ideas slowly dwindle away. My ideas of being a gentlmen seem to be worthless in this new era. It's pathetic to see how mean people really can be. I myself, im not the nicest guy, but i put respect of my friends way above my own. Which brings me to the conclusion.. do i treat myself like shit? am i too hard on myself. I feel like im weighing down on my own capabilities sometimes, my own feelings, my feelings for this new person., school, sports; and the only person who would continue to treat me like dirt. Life is a cruel unforgiving mass of emotions and experiences waiting to be kicked so it can reprobate in another direction. But in all bad there is good. I can't change whats happened so the only thing i can do is work that much harder to get to my goals. I'll have my day.. some day