Here we are

Today was just another day. I actually finished all my homework as after i got home i took a nap. Iwoke up around 6 40 then went for a jogg. I need to get in better shape. i came back around 720 and had my protein shake after i did my minimun of at least 100 crunches. Tommorrow since there is no game im going to to try and have a hard workout after i do my hw. I realize the real me but im really starting to doubt my abilities in anything, and i finally see that its killing me. I startred this year out confident, hell i even sang to a girl infront of the whole school, but i find that strength dwindling away. I need to fix that, i need that sort of power back in me. I really find myself on the edge of a lot of things, and i think im really close to falling. At least now i have someone there holding me up even if she isnt physically there. Nella. I'll just be my true self more often, i guess people want to see that. Either way i just hope maybe people still like me, for me. If i can continue on my path maybe even Ris is attainible.