Drama

I want to help Ris out. There really is nothing i can do do, this is a problem that is going to have to wait. My motives are different, i want to do something to prove myself worthy, i know it's a cliche' idea. I'm not doing it to win her over or anything to do with that, i'm doing it because that's what a real friend does, thats how anything starts with a base. That base is a friend. Even if im not the one, i want to be Ris's friend, you know that guy she can tell stuff to when things get bad, or that comfort umbrella when things get bad. I've tried my best with nella, but it seems she is doing fine on her own. I'm not doing this because i have no one else to do it for. I'm doing because i see something different in Ris that i don't see in others. No its not a crush or anything, i just see something different. Shes not your typical pretty face, no personality girl. And unfortunately many mistake her for that. It's not until you really talk to her that you understand what kind of person she is. Shes free floating, getting by on the goods but trying to stay away from drama. Unfortunately drama will always trail her with all those guys following her scent, like a mouse hovering towards some cheese in those old saturday morning cartoons. Thats what really got me, as much as it follows her she doesnt want it. I realize that smile is her personality, down to earth, and simple. She's a human being just like myself, not some goddess i imagined her to be three years ago (three years ago nella meant the same). I guess Ris could be considered one though because of the way she looks (ooh boy words cannot describe that), but through all that she's kind of like me. Except probably a bit more on the less wierd side. I could go on and on, but that would not mean anything because actions speak louder than words. When time passes i will have to think of something bigger than singing in a rally. That's childs play.


on the day though, it was pretty fair. you know school, lunch with friends, library for homework, then just cihlling at home. Tomorrow i plain for a harder work out because i didnt do anything today... im going to get fat :(. But most importantly im just worried about getting good grades and becoming that soccer player i want to be. Through every problem there is a solution wether it be good or bad i want to find the solution to my problems. I must search for my own answers and attain the goals i set for myself. Ris and feelings i have for others fall in line with my success.