Paranormal Activiy.

Today was a good day. i woke up at seven had breakfast, then relaxed until about 1 pm. I stepped outside and the crisp sun was devouring the sky of clouds. The blue of the sky was beaufiful, so i took a jogg all the way to community park then got a ride back (man was a tired). The highlight of my day was actually When i went to see paranormal activity with Ris and my new good friend rah and hew new "talking buddy". The movie wasnt nearly as good as it was hyped up to be, but i promise you that i probably wont be able to sleep for another few hours (estimated time around 4 AM). I felt the pulse of Ris's hands come in sync with mine, it was wierd i havent felt that in a long time. In that moment i didn't care about the movie or the gum i placed my foot on, or Rah poking my back making it uncormfatble. All i thought about was her heartbeat, and the calmness of mine. Until i relaized that i was holding her hand i was fine, when i realized i found my heart fluttering again and it was all of a sudden really hot. The sight of her eyes made it that much worse, not only was it a scary part in the movie but her eyes made my fluttering heart turn into sort of a hummingbird flying around. In general i was freaking out. Wether or not Ris likes me, i felt something just a little stronger tonight, i thought that maybe she COULD have feelings for me. I'm ok if she just wants to be friends, as long as everyone is happy, especially her, my happiness only extends are far as i let it, and if that means giving up something for someone to be happy ill do that. There was drama though, and now im intertwined in this knot. This guy really likes Ris, but she doesnt like him back, and because of his actions and how he hold his ideals in this situation he brings more drama into Ris's DT (drama triangle). Emotions and feelings seem to drive our very thoughts and actions, which leaves me to conclude that if i can supress my emotions, my thoughts and actions would be clear and in control. I could then assess matters at hand and take aprehend drama by the neck and throw it in the trash where it belongs. I beleive that i deserve what i deserve. The night before nella was driving me to and fro from place to place, The silhouette of her face againts the bright lands and dark background helped me obtain complete control, i thought of the past and this time accepted it. She wall always know me for who i am. for once i had fun, REAL FUN. It carried over to tonight, with Ris. I wont forget how it felt to hold the hand of the girl of everyones dreams, Ive held the girl of my dreams, now i had the chance to hold the girl of everyones dreams. The one person who, own their own, could single handedly turn the school inside out without even trying. I can't imagine what it would be like if she actuall use that power. I really cant because im dozing off.. Good night. Ill leave her with this thought. Beauty leads to the peronality which can lead to the destruction of a possible relationship, So far Ris is one of the few girls who beauty on the outside matches that on the inside and i find that hard to find. The only girl who had that at one time was nella ( I beleive she may still have it). MY question is, can i match that?