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Havent really posted in awhile due to me just be lazy about it. Yesterday watched the fight at kevins. Some random people but it was still pretty chill. sick fight Cotto had nothing on our man Pacman after the 2nd round. Anyway yesterday was good. Today was chill i hung out with G sunga and just kicked back like usual.

Now that soccer is over i really don't look forward to much at all after school. So ive decided im going to devote a lot of my time after homework and school in training. I don't my last competetive soccer game to be in highschool. I want my last competitive to be my death bed. When im old and decrepit. I really just havent felt like talking about a lot recently, i guess i want to take more action that typing or inscribing my thoughts into the mindless readers out there. I guess i felt that typing my thoughts out here was a waste of time for a while. In a way it is and it isn't but its just how you look at it. Wether its half full or half empty. The glass still has something in it. Thats how i truly see out of my eyes. Even if its a little at least it's something. Wether you have little money or a lot, your better off with a little then none at all.

It seems im talking a lot about death lately, and personally its kinda scaring me too. Saying stupid things likie im going to slit my wrists, or jump of a bridge with a noose around my neck. Or more things in depth like im going to slit my throath open with splintered wood then drink a bottle of rubbing alcohol to clean the cut. I woulndt be suprised one day if i found myself doing that. The way things are going for me in my head. im not really suprised of anything anymore. If anything im just disgusted with our race. hah thats something a killer would say. but im not that crazy to go around and become what i found vile and disgusting. Fucking people bashing in innocent peoples faces with hammers and metal posts. killing innocent people, that is beyond disgusting the thought makes me want to punch a hole in my wall. Our world is beyond fucked up, and not too many people seem to be making that step for change.

Well ill sleep on a good note. BUUUT. Since all some of u no lifes wanted to find out the people in my blogs and most of u know by now. that just makes it easier on me to say names. Obsession is a horrible word. because asking my best friend if im obsessed over someone is an absurd question. To the person who asked that question im really not, but beleive whatever you want i'm really not that good of a person, theres nothing really great at all, so i don't even know why ud be interested in someone lower then yourself (me). no im not asssuming things.

If u really wanted to find out who those people were, just ask me straight up (sorry brett ), ill tell you probably seeing as it doesnt matter anymore. I don't truly care for anyone other then myself is just a lie i use to get out of saying i really care for someone.

In the end ill just sleep in the facts, lies , and ideas.

So good night all.