Death sentence

This was my dreams. And im terrified:

I awoke the next day from last nights argument with you in pain. The back of my eyes hurt i could feel their dead beat pulse throughout my body, I resented myself in this world, i hated it for who i am. I missed prom, all my friends had a great time, and all i could do was reminisce and look at the photos i had of us. Back in the before era. I was at a restaurant, may father and everyone my friends they were all there., everyone was happy eating. Eat for the mourning of the death of 20 people in a horrific imaginary accident we called DBC day. (death by car). TheA/c was blowing wildly through what little hair i had and i quietly sat there and stared down at my food. Julia walked in,last but not least, and sat on the other end of the spectrum. Everyone sort of moved a seat down, away from me. I sat by myself.. again.I ran outside hoping maybe you would come and save me. Indeed you came, i saw a glimpse of you, you were calling my name. I acted like i couldn't hear you, you ran over and slammed me into the ground. i could feel the blood trickling down and out of my nose slapping itself on the ground like water dripping out of an old sink. You looked me in the eye and sai " i did it with him, i didn't mean...". I was hysterical, and you had no emotions in your face. You completely left me,  the only thing holding me was the wall i was leaning on and the warm air surrounding us. I cried out loud, everyone all my friends sat and stared at me, like i was a nobody again. You stood up and called me weak.... I thought this was it, can't get any lower than this.

We heard the death call....


The siren rang like crazy, but only once. One ring.. I had no idea what was going on. All the things that happened in the real world were not helping me in this dream world. I had a real sense of mind, not a dream sense of mind.. Then it hit me. Everyone was running because we were going to die. I ran into kevin and he looked at me with the same pain, " aww shit" he said. I heard a ringing and my body went humb, death whistles they were called. They were torture before death. Two more times and everyone in the school was on the ground. You were no where to be in site. We all saw the white light, we looked around and then we found nothingness. nothing, it was it the end..


I woke up. The real world. Blood trickled down and out of my nose and i looked into the mirror on top my bed and saw my eyes completely dialated, they stayed like that for awhile... I'm terrified right now, every sound was a death threat and you leaving, This dream scared me and i can remember every god damn thing in it. I wiped the blood away and looked around the room, the only light coming from my phone, and my alarm clock. As i type this im still trembling. Everything so vibrant in vivid, every thought and instance in that dream was real, it was my other reality. I'm weak, and I'm scared. Not of death. But of losing you, and of dying unfulfilled and unhappy... What do i do with myself