School is tommorrow. I tried New years resolutions and they don't really work. I like to think a lot actually, but im more of a person of action. I don't like to be stagnate all the time. I have to keep moving and learning, constantly twiddling my thumbs in class waiting for the fun to come.

The fun did come.. Break was spectacular. I really can't begin to explain the being, the entity behind all that has happened. But whatever or whoever it is, it gave me signs, led me to a place. Where i met someone who i need, and may also need me. I can't imagine how dull and boring my break could have been if i didnt follow those signs, but i did. That is truly fate. So ill go into school tommorrow with my the thoughts and plans i already set out, and accomplish them. Constantly walking on the line of success and failure is hard. I'm going to continue walking with all the help i can get, all the things  i have learned my friends and family. And start this new year off good. Like i said New years resolutions don't work, You can talk about all the stuff you want to do, but its the actual action, or participation for the success of your resolution that matters. The road to success is what matters most. My road is sort of that thick line. I continue to look at myself negative so i can improve. Yes i am to hard on myself a lot of the time, but thats just purely how i get better.

But this time I'll let her crooked walking help lead me in the direction of success. I feel like, rather i know that she can help me a lot. She's already helped me improve even though i guess im constantly getting whipped ( i dont mind to much :) ). But now i beleive its finally my turn to stand up and make a name for myself. Not for other people to see, but to finally please myself in my own eyes. The one person i have the highest standards for is myself, and i WILL meet them.

If there is anything i would have to take from break, there is no one thing. Infact it would be all of break. I have learned that Fate works mysteriously. And there truly is someone out there for everyone. I also learned that i don't know if i have fully felt love, i was always butthurt/heartbroke over someone i really didnt need to be. Maybe love is closer then i thought. Maybe it's at a place in my reach but not phsically. I'm not saying im in love, because there is still a journey, im just saying that love is everywhere and everyone deserves it. I've learned that my strength comes from myself and others. 

MY beleifs still hold true, and everything i say to myself im going to do. Most importantly from break....
I have met someone who may actually.. who actually cares for me, who talks to me when i talk to her. Who makes a conversation. Stronger then me. See's the world for what it is and for what its not, and knows the reality of life. Is Positive about her decisions and sticks to it. Shes that sort of  that dream girl for me, but shes real.

But from all that, from break, I met someone i can care for too. It may have been a short time, and some of you may be like wth is Tai doing? He's and idiot?

But i dont really care, because i know what the real deal is. I found that person that will live love learn and 212, like me. With me.The only thing holding me back is fear of getting too attached. But i think ill let go of that fear, i have that  feeling she wont hurt me.  I like her more then her and my own understanding


2010 is going to be my year, and the years following will be my years also. I'm going to wake up as that Tai i stated to myself before, stronger.
Peace.