Die

Slowly devouring my body from the inside out. capturing my thoughts, by inner being and stealing it away from me. Hastening my death, quickly taking over my legs, moving up to the gap in my chest. then to the emptiness in my head. Pure thoughts, turned into raw tar, tainted, disgusting, dirty. Looking back, looking forward. Typing without a reason saying random words without my pure thought. Looking at myself in dusgust. The only one who can soothe the thoughts in my head is me. Well to an extent at least. I looked outside at the rain and i saw myself. Looking back at me, i mouthed "Die". I ran outside to catch myself but i tripped. and i kept falling, i was suspended in mid air, i want  someone to catch me and take back what i did. But the only that can catch me is myself. And im going to have to live with the fact that im just like everyone else out there, nothing special. Ignorant to his own thoughts and ideals, a fucking idiot.

but theres no use moping around  because i screwed myself over once again. All i got from waiting is a broken heart. So im going back in search for myself again. If you find Tai let him know that im truly sorry.

Because the one emptying himself on this stupid website is an empty shell looking for that fire once again. Maybe i'll find it in the least likely of places. The rain.