To long,

Another day passes by, old memories flood my bedroom door like sunlight that pierces your blinds on sunday morning. Then they fade away as the moon hides itself behind dark looming clouds. Releasing my mind into the depths of the world and delving farther than i have ever thought. All these thoughts, as i space out, run through my head. And i can't help it. My mind races off, wondering, asking questions that don't contain a what if, but rather just if. I can't remember the last time i really posted something meaningful on here, i just havent taken the time to really  write without worry.

As we grow older, as each year, day, hour, minute, second passes by, We lose something. It doesnt matter what it is, a loved on, a cell, a phone, a pencil. We lose something... yet at the same time we gain. we obtain what we don't want, when we don't need it. To me there are things that i don't want to lose... and you are one of them. the actual one reading this, taking time to unwind and tie my thoughts up into your own comprehension. I don't want to lose my morals, and my ability to see between right and wrong. I don't want to lose my love for whats important. And i don't want to lose my bunny.... But no matter how much people criticize, or tell me im wrong for picking this one. I truly don't care. I am happy, and nobody is going to take that away from me. I know one day there will be an end, im well aware of that. Im only 17. But, for every loss there is a gain, and with that loss i gain the memories that have been bestowed upon me. There are things that you have done, that i can't and won't forget. No matter how you go about life, and even if im forgotten i can't forget the little things.

Pure thought, just the ability to think, means that there is something more to existing, whether god made us, or in lamens terms were made of stardust, this ability to think is what drives me , to be me. and at the best level i can be, i want to be better. so much to think about, and i have a lifetime to spread it out over..

Hopefully, you'll be my good friend in years to come. As annoying as i can be.. There s something in you that i can't pick and place, something i cant find in another person. And i don't want to lose that. I want to be able to go each day knowing that what i've obtained won't leave me... and im comfortable to say that in the time being it will be here. Your ability to keep going fascinates me, whther u think im silly or not. I want to be like you in that way. I want to be strong

I'm for a reason, and for that reason i don't know... this is just a light touch on a subject i want to pick up on later. Just know bunny... that wherever you go.. your always thought of highly on my end. Home is where your thought of most.... theres always room for you right here.

Lost my track, making my way back

Simply stated above.

Back once again rendering my thoughts vulnerable to the public because i don't know what else to do with them. A lot has been on my mind the past couple of days. Am i ok? no i'm not, i truly am not. But who else is there to blame. None other then myself.


I'm fading in and out of the thin line
Balancing all my sins and i can't deny
My first mistake don't be shy
Second mistake i have to be nice
Third  i let it get to my head
Fourth i kept thinking i was ahead
Five i lost site of the line
So i stepped off and now im falling behind
As you walk along floating further
I reach for your hand and i don't hear a murmur
A glare , a death stare
Shall i attempt to go further
Nothing ventured nothing gained,
I am  to venture i want it all the same
Catch myself on the same line
I hope i can be strong enough in time
So once again i start off at home base
Different time same place.
Rejoicful if i can find your hand
Time to atone and time to plan
One more chance to be your man...